h-o-p-e

I hate days like today. They come and go quite often. They consist of me being in a horrible mood, often crying, calling my mom (bless her heart) and complaining, but most of all, me asking why? Why can't I find my dream job? Why can I not stick to a diet? Why do all of my friends seem to be starting their own lives and I still seem to be stuck? That's it: stuck. I've had this feeling ever since my graduation this past May not long after a few friends got married, a few moved to different towns and some to different states, and a few announced they were expecting. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love every single one of them and am so, so happy for what God is doing for them. But, again, I'm stuck. I'm in the same city, I have the same job, I'm going back to the same school, and I pretty much have the same life except for friends scattered all over the country.

Silver lining? I dunno... except for this strange, hopeful feeling I have.

This, too, has been in existence since my graduation day... and is very unusual for me. First of all, I am a super, duper WORRIER (seriously, ask anyone who knows me)! So for me to have a sense of relief and hope about anything says something. I love that word. Hope. I think that's what He wants and plans for all of us. After all, I can't talk about hope without thinking of my favorite bible verse, Jeremiah 29:11. I'll even quote it for you if you don't already know it :) "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord. "Plans to prosper you and not to not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." The best part about the scripture; it is straight from His mouth. word. for. word.

So I don't have a clue what is in store for me, and I know it's better that way. I understand that I will see friends come and go, see amazing things happen to amazing people, grow up and find out what I'm supposed to do all in the correct "season" of life (Shout out to Sunday's sermon... I knew that's why I wasn't daydreaming). It sounds so cliche, but all I know to do is be grateful for absolutely everything good and bad. I love my family, love my friends, and love that I am here on this earth to experience whatever it is I am supposed to experience. So here it goes...

Man, that was deep and slightly cheesy -- I am exhausted now :)